“Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:10)
Do you ever get super frustrated when things don’t go your way? When you have the whole day planned out and just one catastrophe throws the day upside down and nothing gets done right. A flat tire on the way to the store, a spilled coffee just when heading out the door to work, or an accidental run in with an old chatty friend that takes way longer to talk with, and you can’t just walk away. Maybe it’s a college placement test after being out of college for 30 years and you can’t seem to remember basic math skills and suddenly feel like your really really ignorant.
opps..that was in my outdoor voice…yup..that is me..right now.
Whispers of ineptitude have been screaming at me. “How dare you go back to college?” “You know your dumb..you failed..again..a practice test.” “You know there are fresh high school kids way smarter then you doing this?”
Sigh. So I went to my prayer closet..that just so happens to be the local Planet Fitness, and went for a “brain drain prayer walk”. God and I had an audible conversation. I had no one near me (chosen that way on purpose) and I started talking to Jesus. I spent the first half of the mile just in worship..the mantra of yes God I do thank you..over and over. Sometimes it takes awhile for my spirit to catch up to the brain.
I began to focus on His love for me..instead of my love for Him. See how that flipped? I quit being so focused on my un met needs and started to see all He has accomplished for me. I know I am week. I know it’s been 30 + year since I was in a college class. However, in those weaknesses I know from all my past failures God is and will be working. This is the place miracles can happen! Gods strength shows up! Oh I start getting excited over that. What more possibly can God do through me?
I think He allows those frustrations to get our attention. For instance, when I was a little girl and my sisters and I would be together, we could never stand still..we were always bumping into each other..hip to hip..shoulder bumps..a touch here..a touch there. Yes, I think God does that to us. Guiding us through this world and all the frustrations that come with it!