Whispers Carried on the Wind

I know it has been a hot minute since the last writing binge. The days grew shorter over the winter. I promise..they did. Between the increase in work hours and the decrease in light during the day, this winter was a long one.

When I last wrote, I was on my way back to college. To a university I had attended 32 years ago. I was seeking to finish what I had started that many years ago. Unfortunately, the school refused to accept the credits they once accepted those 32 years ago. No matter how much I fought, even to the top of admissions, would allow them to accept those credits. So…I did not want to retake 70 credits over again. I pulled the emergency brake and cried and screamed at God. I was very frustrated. How could God call me and not provide a way? I spent sleepless nights showing God the problem and I walked and prayed and then I grew very very silent. I began to listen.

In this listening process, I found something I needed. A boost to my own self worth. How? Through the job changes. I had ended my work at the church doing the book keeping. I was actually unemployed for a week or two. Then a beautiful job opened up. Not only was I a book keeper, but I was Operating Manager. I was pulled into a key role. Guess what? I did remarkable well. This job provided for my physical needs. However, My spiritual needs were lacking. My Bible study group became a life line. I left each group night leaning into the Word..straining to hear to the whispers. I spent time traveling with Jesus through the eyes of John…listening to Him speak to the disciples…Speak Lord…speak to me..your servant listens.

However…the days passed at an intense speed. I began to rail at God — again—-WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? THIS is not where I am supposed to be!!! I stopped listening….For several weeks, I made my request known to God. Repeatedly. Show me — What did I miss? — What do I do?? All of these types of questions rolled through me.

Until I heard the WHISPER — yes it came as a whisper. I have always believed in one major thing — Family first. God has always honored that. So I leaned on that. And one family member popped up in need. This need has opened a door for me to follow. One more time the WHISPER of the Spirit of God is calling me forward. Packing up…one…more…time.

All that I own will fit one more time into the back of my vehicle and I will move again. I will be taking some work with me. However the biggest is I will get my education credits to do hospital chaplaincy. For that I know God has designed this walk.

Whispers carry

On the winds of change

Whispers breathe

On the winds of tomorrow

Whispers are heard

On the certainty

The God who whispers loves me

Author: thewidowwomanblog

I am a 53 year old widow who is watching her kids step out into life while holding tight to the Creator's hand.

One thought on “Whispers Carried on the Wind”

  1. Fantastic blog, Wendy! Isn’t it amazing how God directs us! Congrats on getting the credits to count toward your hospital chaplaincy as well! Sometimes we think, or at least I have, that God has this huge, big, major ‘deal’ we’re supposed to be doing for him, and we don’t know what it is, can’t see it, keep searching for it. Over the last few years I have learned that my primary assignment in this life is to be an example to those around me, and that starts with family! Sounds like God directed you that way as well, while simultaneously furthering your heart’s call for chaplaincy. We serve an AWESOME God!

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