Whispers from the grave

Jesus spent time between the cross and the resurrection. The only thing we know is he did not spend it in heaven with his father. In John 20:17 Jesus told Mary not to touch him as he had not ascended to the Father. There are many theories out there.

I open with this on the eve before resurrection Sunday. I don’t really know why. Other then these last few months I feel like I have hit a brick wall. When I moved here my goals were housing, job, school. Well..housing is too far from school, job is ok as jobs go..thankful to have it right now, and housing is not great (but thankful to have it!). I did not expect to still be here a year later.

The whisper from the grave is hard. I miss my love so very much. Time has not dulled that one bit. The whispers I hear are twisted with what I think he would say to me if he were here. The words of affirmation he would say. “You got this hun”, “your so smart babe”, “keep smiling girl”, “your a great mother babe”. The list goes on. I have to draw on this daily to get through. Does this make me a week person? Maybe.

Jesus whispered from the grave. He whispers his love for us.

John 15:4 Remain in me, as I also remain in you.

John 15:9 As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.

John 14:1 Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me.

The list is long, I listed only a few. I need to focus on the whispers of Jesus. The confidence He has for me. This road has been hard the last few months.

I am sorry I have not written as much. My confidence has been shaken yet again. The whispers of self condemnation were overwhelming. I must rise up. I must move forward. God has not failed me, yet I feel as though I failed him. His grace and mercy covers that and gives me hope to rise up one more day, one more time.

Author: thewidowwomanblog

I am a 53 year old widow who is watching her kids step out into life while holding tight to the Creator's hand.

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