To New Things

I know it has been awhile since my last posting. Things were crazy and way out of control. I have good things to shout and praise God for. I have my own place. Yeah God. I found a small place in a small town, population of about 4,083 people. I am living in public housing so I am so thankful I am not in a big city..I would be terrified. God knew what I needed and this is it. I am so fortunate that this unit was available…it is the most up to date in the building. I cried..I admit it…I felt so humbled. At first it was “what did I do to deserve this place”…yes my pride was talking. From owning my own beautiful home, to having an old building with public housing that smells, strange people starring at you as you come and go. Now, I have repented my attitude and am so thankful for this place that God provided.

I moved in with a suitcase. A few bags. No bed, no furniture..nothing. All my stuff is still in storage 700 miles away. I am beyond broke so how to get that stuff here has become a mystery. I will have to save money and get it somehow. I know God is working things out in me. My daughter made it from college to live with me, she provided the kitchen supplies. 2 beds were given to us, new ones and a gift was made to proved the sheets and bed coverings.

Again..I have so much to thank God for. This whole transition was hard..after a few days of being here I hit rock bottom emotionally. I was drained. I started falling apart when the housing struggle became so difficult. My heart breaks for the homeless people. I am so thankful that I have God and determination. And most of my family. I know that they are praying for me. Depression has wrecked me. I also became very sick with pneumonia.

Battling these 2 issues, I became determined. This beautiful little town has a most gorgeous walking trail by a river. I have taken to walking my dog and praying. The trails are empty at certain times so I pray out loud. Every word. Talking to Jesus as He walks with me. It has been cathartic for my soul.

Have things changed? Nope. I am still in public housing. I am still in a small town 20 minutes from the nearest Wal-Mart. I am still far from friends. BUT GOD! I am positive God is still working on my behalf. He is supplying my every need. He will provide just the right job. And, I know this is not forever. It is for now. Every night I fall asleep thankful for the roof over my head. Thankful for my daughter to be with me. Thankful that God still sees me.

As a kid I had to learn how to play the flute, and the first song I learned to play is this

God is so good,

God is so good,

He’s so good to me.

I sing this one over, and over and over. Being homeless and having no plan was scary. I am thankful for those friends who opened their home, and hearts and helped me. I know what it cost, as Carl and I opened our home for many people who needed a home. This process showed me so much love being on the other side of the doorway. I pray God blesses them in more ways then I could ever repay.

Maybe now I can do more writing….more learning…more loving.

Author: thewidowwomanblog

I am a 53 year old widow who is watching her kids step out into life while holding tight to the Creator's hand.

4 thoughts on “To New Things”

  1. I love you. God will use you mightily. He is preparing you, and He is supplying all your needs. Thank you for sharing.

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