Whispers of The Mind

Oh the drama! Oh the stuff! Drama is just not my thing. When life gets crazy, I get really really quiet. It is radio silent. I don’t talk much. I for sure don’t talk about anything important. I go into hyper sensitive mode. I listen deeply to those around me. I listen to more music, I read more books. I stop writing. This makes me sad, but it is my coping tool.

During these last few weeks, life has dropped drama into my home. Work issues, teenage stuff, car stuff and of course, financial crisis. I began a long over due melt down. I began anxiety break outs. I think of it like an acne attack on a teenager right before prom. Anxiety is such a vicious thing to deal with. Oh those whispers seem to be screaming.

I am so thankful that along this lonely journey there is a time of restoration, even a resurrection of sorts. A day most of the world calls Easter, I call it a day of remembrance. To remember the cruelty of the cross and the victory of the grave. I would not be who I am today. I would have no hope, no reason, no faith in humans nor of a future without the events marked in history so long ago.

The same spirit that raised Christ from the dead dwells in me. I find power. I find strong ability. I find clarity of mind. I grasp onto that..holding tight and firm. There is something that begins to whisper to me, it wells up from deep inside. It is golden. It is true.

God has a future for me. Help me be who you want me to be. I want to be ready!

Author: thewidowwomanblog

I am a 53 year old widow who is watching her kids step out into life while holding tight to the Creator's hand.

2 thoughts on “Whispers of The Mind”

  1. Hello Wendy!

    Thanks so much for sharing your journey! I, like you, go radio silent when things get bad. I withdraw, communicate with my God, and wait. Then I wait some more. And some more. Eventually the clouds part and He drops His wisdom on my heart and mind.

    Easter is indeed a time of restoration. One of my go-to pages in time of trouble is here: http://biblereasons.com/troubles/ as it lists 25 encouraging Bible verses for times of trouble. You’re likely familiar with all of them, but it may help to have them handy to read.

    This journey of widowhood which you are walking is similar to mine as a long-time single woman. I can relate to the fears, the loneliness, the anxiety at times. But God NEVER fails us. When I feel such an atmosphere descending on me, I remind myself aloud that God has my back at all times. At times, I focus on one moment at a time. “Right now, everything is fine.” Repeat. And repeat again.

    You are an inspiration to me and I have you and the kids on my permanent prayer list. Know He loves you all and WILL make a way. God doesn’t ask us for perfect faith, just for faith, which Jesus perfects in us. You’re already ready, even when it feels like you’re not.

    Blessings to you and yours!


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