The things that one is supposed to do for the new year boggles my mind. Make resolutions, clean the house, try harder, live brighter, work more efficiently. You get the idea. When grief rolls through like a steam roller, bull dozer, tank truck, gigantic wave, nothing make sense, yet everything is crystal clear. The things that should line up don’t, yet all of a sudden something falls into place like the final piece of a jigsaw puzzle. The dichotomy of life.
Over the last 3 months I have gone through the process of losing someone close to me to the horrific thing called death. Both were so young. My nanny that took such great care of my kids when they were young suddenly passed away from an extreme aggressive cancer at 29 years old. My kids close friend who actually spoke to them and tried to be a friend when no one seem to care if they lived or died themselves, was tragically murdered at 18 years of age. These things just make that horrible thing called grief rise up and try to swamp my life perspective. The feelings of loss and abandonment, remembering the feelings of my own loss. My empathetic soul cried for the parents. The ones who loved these precious people.
I reached out and grabbed hold. I didn’t have to scramble. I didn’t have to flail my arms and panic. I grabbed hold. I have only one anchor. I have only one tether to this thing called life. It is the point of my soul that hangs so desperately to hope. The promise. The whisper of tomorrow. With this promise comes a few amazing benefits.
1. Hope – “But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you. Psalm 39:7 NIV – looking forward. Just over the horizon is better. Better than here.
2. Joy – “Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete” John 16:24 – this was when Jesus spoke to the disciples and told them he would be leaving them and for them not to grieve for long. He did not say they could not grieve. He told them they will rejoice, and in that will come questions, with that comes dialog, with that comes conversation followed by that sense of JOY. Deep underlying joy. Someone cares. Someone appreciates you. Something supernatural happens.
3. Strength – “And he hast said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my power is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 (ASV) When I thank God for who He is and glory in the fact that greatness was not in my strength, but my weakness then real power comes. Strength will rise up. Strongholds are broken. Real power is unleashed.
So I look to tomorrow with whispers of praise on my lips. I leave you with this from Elevation Worship –
“For A Moment”
Peace be still you are with me
In this hope I abide
Jesus be my sustainer
Strengthen me in this trial
And I know, it’s only for a moment
And everything is working for your glory
But I need, your perfect love to hold me
Safe within your promise
Til the storm has passed
When this burden is lifted
I’ll give thanks to your name
But until it is finished
I’ll give praise just the same
For we have this hope
As an anchor for our soul
You are with us
We will never be alone